I and Zonk are now on our 6th year together. We met in real after 2 years of gaming together and during that time we got close as friends. When we met for the first time we both felt that we had something that could be really, really good if we gave it a chance. So we started a long distance relationship and had a few rough months but as soon as I graduated I packed my stuff and moved in with him.

We stayed there for almost 2 years and during that time we had some real economical issues. We hardly talked and when we did we almost always fought over something. At the end of those 2 years I found out that Zonk had been emotionally involved with someone else (for me that's cheating/being unfaithful). The contact between them had been close and on a daily basis (probably mostly cause they also worked together) with emails, phone calls and text messages. The few emails I found was rough with detailed scenes of all kinds of "activities" and mixed in was an open contempt of me and me being home taking up their valued time for conversations.

Finding out that the person meaning the world to me went behind my back, saying those kind of things about me to another female broke me down. I had in early years picked up the bad behavior of cutting myself when I was sad and this time there were no change. I cut my arms, legs, stomach,  you name it! Everywhere I could find an open area on my body I went lose on it. The ambulance staff had to bring me in to the psychiatric emergency where I had to deal with all my issues.

I really didn't know what to do after that but decided to stick around to see how I felt and if I wanted to continue with Zonk. Short after I found out that I was pregnant and we decided to keep it, give us a second chance and move to start on a fresh basis where there were no bad memories. It was a rough couple of months where I couldn't stand Zonk seeing me naked or even change clothes or take a shower. If he happened to touch me I shrank back and backed up and walked away. (A side note is that since I found out about my pregnancy I have NEVER EVER cut myself again! I would never do that to my kids!) We bought an apartment close to family and after we moved the economy got better (not great but at least better).

During the pregnancy we started to get to know each other again and on January 4^th 2007 I gave birth to my son Oli. Finally life was starting to feel good again!